Sat, Jan. 9th, 2010, 12:43 pm
Wow I haven't looked at this journal in so long. I just read a few older posts of mine, I don't remember much of what any of it is talking about. When I think of my past it's almost like looking back on a past life or someone else's life. I have changed so much so quickly.
Hey everyone, I'm gay! I don't know if I've ever said that before, but I fully came out about a year and a half ago. It was the most amazing experience I've ever had in my life. A physical weight was lifted off my shoulders. I'm not sad anymore, that's the best part. I'm soooo happy all of the time..usually.
I've lost a lot of weight. In high school I do believe my highest weight was around 250-260lbs. Now I weigh 165-170lbs. I honestly don't know how it all came off. I never worked out. I never did any type of drug that would make me lose weight. Maybe smoking cigarettes? I like to think that it was after I came out and all the stress and depression was taken away.
I'm working at Starbucks and I have been for the past 4 years. I feel like Starbucks has seen all of who I have been. It's my transitional phase in life. I'm about to get a new job with Andrew at a health insurance broker. I'm really excited. We would like to rent a house in April after my apartment lease is up. Living closer to Atlanta would be real nice. Living in Atlanta would be pretty amazing too!
I've been in two relationships so far. They both lasted for exactly a month. They both ended on bad terms. They were both crazy people, in my defense. I feel bad at times because I feel like I went into both relationships knowing it wouldn't last...and almost not really liking them, I just wanted the comfort maybe? That's a horrible thing to do now that I think about it, it's almost toying with people's feelings. I don't like hurting people. But they were crazy...in my defense, that is.
I haven't gone back to college. I'm 23. (wow I just had to think about how old I am...not a good sign.) I'm not too upset about it, college will always be there, I just can't wait much longer though.
"Umm..more to come. Sorry, I'm so tired."
That was the last sentence of my last blog...a year ago. Hmm, there is something wrong there. Anyways, I'm finally updating. I don't think anyone reads this anymore because, well, I haven't updated in a year so I can't complain.
In October 2006 I moved out of my parent's house into an apartment. WOOT finally starting my life!!!! (nope). It sucks, I can barely afford rent/utilities while working at Starbucks. After my lease is up I'm moving back home so I can go to school. I want...no...I need to go to school. I'm not going to be working at Sbux for the rest of my life, or retail, or anything close to it. I want to be in the medical field badly.
So I really love the people I work with at Starbucks, but I haaaate the pay and I hate the work. I also hate coffee. So I'm about to get another job. It's a company called Oasis...something something. I don't know the full name. All I know is that they build/prepare landfills to be used. I will be working in Puerto Rico for a few months which will be really amazing. I have been there once on a cruise, it was nice, so I'm hoping I will be close to San Juan, the capital.
I haven't talked to the people who use to read this in a long time. How are you guys? I miss you all. I'm really horrible at staying in touch, sorry?
My AIM screen name is Atownbirdman, in case I haven't updated anyone. Well that's about all I can think of right now to say. I mean, there is more, but it's boring and I don't really want to put it on Livejournal at this time.
Goal: Start making videos for Youtube.
Sun, Apr. 9th, 2006, 02:32 am
I'm still alive, I promise!
Hmm let's see. In the past 3 months I have...dropped out of school and done nothing with my life. I'm going back in the summer, but not to the same one. I was just really sick of Southern Polytechnic State. SIIIICK. I'm going to a local college to do a medical degree, which I will have so much more fun with. Umm..more to come. Sorry, I'm so tired.
Sat, Jan. 28th, 2006, 06:27 pm
You know, some people can be really really shallow. Just because a person looks different doesn't mean they are lesser than you as a human being. Fat, deformed, diseased...if you make fun of them then you are the lesser person. Don't talk bad about people, it's not nice.
Starting today I'm not going to let anyone talk bad about my friends, not even my friends that hate my other friends. If you have something to say about one of them then just keep your mouth shut or else it might be shut by me. Ok? Ok....
Moral: Shallow people suck
Mon, Jan. 23rd, 2006, 09:52 pm
One of my best friends, Kris, is moving back this weekend after having moved to Florida over a year ago. I'm really excited. The trio will re-unite. Sammy, Kris, and I. I can't wait.
You lose one you gain one, right? that's what I want to believe anyways
Mon, Jan. 23rd, 2006, 10:08 am
If I slept through every second of life, would my dreams become my life? ANSWER IT...or die
Mon, Jan. 16th, 2006, 04:19 pm
It's been too long. Let's see...
Kris, one of my best friends, came to Georgia not too long ago, maybe a month ago, for Christmas. He stayed for three weeks. He moved to Florida last year so I haven't seen him much at all, hopefully he will be moving back up here. Seeing him always makes me think of how I use to be because that's how I was when I first met him. I was shy, quiet, nice, I stood away from the crowd. Now I'm outgoing, social, I like to be in the crowd,....cocky. Yeah, I am more social, but I had to give some part of me up to do that. I'm not sure I like who I am now. I think I will try to go back to who I use to be, or maybe stick in the middle.
Um, what else has happened? Not much at all, Ashley (my other best friend) went to Florida for a month because her boyfriend was going to school there, but they are back. That was a really boring month, I had no one to hang out with until the end when Kris came. Ever since she's gotten back I have felt really uneasy when I hang out with her. I always seem to be getting into arguments with Justin, her boyfriend. Everytime. I guess it's because we are both opinionated, but I don't know. I'll have to think on that one...maybe I need to do some "soul searching" before I hang out with my friends again. I think that will be a good idea. I need to find out who I want to be, because right now I am about 3 different people.
School has started back up which really sucks. My schedule blows, it's so unorganized. Um, more to come later, I'm watching T.V. so I can't really think...stupid ADD.
Thu, Dec. 8th, 2005, 01:45 am
Ok this is only funny to those people who play MMORPGs...more specifically World of Warcraft. ( WoW greatnessCollapse )
Tue, Dec. 6th, 2005, 05:14 pm
Sun, Dec. 4th, 2005, 11:12 pm
So I'm thinking about moving out. The rent is $277 a month plus utilities which is about...$100 I believe. That's $377 a month. Plus my car insurance, which I'm not sure, but I believe it's around $100 a month so that's about $477. Plus gas..$100 a month? So $577 a month to move out. I don't have a job...I go to school....
Is that even possible? I mean of course I would get a job, probably a full time job, but still. I don't think I could do school AND a job. I'm not sure, I need to think about it a lot. I'm so jealous..uhg